Pensei em mil coisas. Uma delas, e que sempre considerei uma verdade, um fato: Eu tenho muita sorte. Sorte de encontrar pessoas (e oportunidades também) certas, nos momentos certos. E o melhor, sem nem esperar por isso. Naturalidade é a melhor coisa que existe, e sempre será. E não digo por nada específico, é por ter momentos de alegria, de felicidade, tão gratuitos, que chegam a ser questionáveis. Ou não, sei lá.
Outra coisa que passou na minha cabeça por esses dias: Abramović diz que um artista não deve forçar sua produção, que as coisas devem vir de uma inspiração, de um sonho. Concordo. Mas acho que também deve-se facilitar o processo. No caso dos desenhos, por exemplo... Já tive fase de me culpar por fazer retratos, pelo fato de eles não serem desenhos totalmente autorais. Hoje, já não vejo assim. Acho que é um processo de apropriação, de treino, de se abrir para ter ideias. Sei lá... Guilt-free (or guilty-free mesmo, rs. Se é para ser assim, que seja do jeito que saiu a escrita naquele momento, não? Rs. Acho válido).
E é isso. Meio torto, meio incompleto, mas tá tudo certo. =)
sexta-feira, 15 de maio de 2015
terça-feira, 12 de maio de 2015
Sobre apagar.
Acho que sempre tive medo de apagar algumas coisas. A começar, tinha medo de apagar alguns desenhos. Não os desenhos inteiros, mas um pedacinho deles enquanto estava desenhando.. Uma parte de um olho, um pedaço de uma boca.. Esse medo era de não conseguir desenhar de um jeito melhor, de simplesmente estragar o que tinha feito e ficar estagnada ali. E aí, isso se estende para tudo. Desenhos, situações, estórias. No fim, é tudo uma grande bobagem, essa mania de (tentar) guardar tudo do jeito que é, ou do jeito que foi. O que importa, no fim, é cada momento. O agora foi ótimo? Então perfeito, sinta a sensação de.. Completude (?). Foi péssimo? Então sinta o horror até acabar. Cada pedaço importa, da sua forma peculiar. E que seja peculiar, porque se for qualquer nota, já não vale muita coisa. Por isso, "here and now" nunca fez mais sentido do que, exatamente, agora. "If not now, when?", pergunta o título de um álbum daquela banda linda e querida. E é isso.
Talvez eu esteja me tornando mais ariana do que imaginava. Rs. Thanks, Universe.
Talvez eu esteja me tornando mais ariana do que imaginava. Rs. Thanks, Universe.
segunda-feira, 11 de maio de 2015
Guilty-free
Aí eu penso. Penso sobre as coisas que eu penso, e vejo que existem duas linhas de raciocínio totalmente discrepantes (ah vá, talvez seja só mais um melodrama, o uso dessa palavra bonita. "Discrepante", não "melodrama", rs). Um é infantil demais (oi, terapia) e o outro é sórdido (outra palavra de que gosto, rs. Cadê o foco desse texto, Brasil?). Sórdido demais. Daí que não sei se isso é comum. Daí que não sei se existe um meio termo (creio que sim, tô tentando achar). Daí que penso penso penso e aí concluo que perdi muitos dos meus vinte e fucking três anos pensando muito e fazendo pouco. Tentando decidir (e precisa?) se sou, sei lá, romantiquinha melosa ou discípula de Sade (amor <3. Haha, que contradição escrever isso). E sei lá.. Acho que tá tudo torto. E torto, a principio, poderia ser uma coisa ruim, poderia causar confusão. Mas então me lembro do manifesto do Grupo EmpreZa (grupo de performers que participou da exposição da Marina FuckingAmazing Abramovic), que dizia, em algum momento, que a confusão é saudável, e aí tudo bem, me permito.
Permirtir-se. Aí está o equilíbrio. Guilty-free (tipo gluten-free rs).
Era isso. Isso e dizer que eu queria saber falar francês. Porque, além de tudo, até quebrar o pau em francês é bonito (obrigada, Azul é a Cor Mais Quente). Queria saber. Saberei, logo menos. E eu demorei uma hora e meia pra escrever isso aqui. Ok. Guilty-free.
Permirtir-se. Aí está o equilíbrio. Guilty-free (tipo gluten-free rs).
Era isso. Isso e dizer que eu queria saber falar francês. Porque, além de tudo, até quebrar o pau em francês é bonito (obrigada, Azul é a Cor Mais Quente). Queria saber. Saberei, logo menos. E eu demorei uma hora e meia pra escrever isso aqui. Ok. Guilty-free.
domingo, 3 de maio de 2015
Old Tale
Come through the front door. Search for me. Find me with your electric eyes. Give me a twisted smile. Pull me. Take me to the corner. Bite my neck and listen carefully to the low moan. Pull me closer. Kiss me. Make me turn my back. Unbutton my pants. Slide your hand on my belly until my panties' lace. Fuck me as you needed the moans of my throat to live. Make me cum. Turn me around and make me look at your eyes during the sensation's persistence just to see your own face in my dilated eyes and know that the cause of the chill is you and your blue eyes.
sábado, 2 de maio de 2015
Marina Abramović's Manifesto
1. An artist’s conduct in his life:
– An artist should not lie to himself or others
– An artist should not steal ideas from other artists
– An artist should not compromise for themselves or in regards to the art market
– An artist should not kill other human beings
– An artist should not make themselves into an idol
– An artist should not make themselves into an idol
– An artist should not make themselves into an idol
2. An artist’s relation to his love life:
– An artist should avoid falling in love with another artist
– An artist should avoid falling in love with another artist
– An artist should avoid falling in love with another artist
3. An artist’s relation to the erotic:
– An artist should develop an erotic point of view on the world
– An artist should be erotic
– An artist should be erotic
– An artist should be erotic
4. An artist’s relation to suffering:
– An artist should suffer
– From the suffering comes the best work
– Suffering brings transformation
– Through the suffering an artist transcends their spirit
– Through the suffering an artist transcends their spirit
– Through the suffering an artist transcends their spirit
5. An artist’s relation to depression:
– An artist should not be depressed
– Depression is a disease and should be cured
– Depression is not productive for an artist
– Depression is not productive for an artist
– Depression is not productive for an artist
6. An artist’s relation to suicide:
– Suicide is a crime against life
– An artist should not commit suicide
– An artist should not commit suicide
– An artist should not commit suicide
7. An artist’s relation to inspiration:
– An artist should look deep inside themselves for inspiration
– The deeper they look inside themselves, the more universal they become
– The artist is universe
– The artist is universe
– The artist is universe
8. An artist’s relation to self-control:
– The artist should not have self-control about his life
– The artist should have total self-control about his work
– The artist should not have self-control about his life
– The artist should have total self-control about his work
9. An artist’s relation with transparency:
– The artist should give and receive at the same time
– Transparency means receptive
– Transparency means to give
– Transparency means to receive
– Transparency means receptive
– Transparency means to give
– Transparency means to receive
– Transparency means receptive
– Transparency means to give
– Transparency means to receive
10. An artist’s relation to symbols:
– An artist creates his own symbols
– Symbols are an artist’s language
– The language must then be translated
– Sometimes it is difficult to find the key
– Sometimes it is difficult to find the key
– Sometimes it is difficult to find the key
11. An artist’s relation to silence:
– An artist has to understand silence
– An artist has to create a space for silence to enter his work
– Silence is like an island in the middle of a turbulent ocean
– Silence is like an island in the middle of a turbulent ocean
– Silence is like an island in the middle of a turbulent ocean
12. An artist’s relation to solitude:
– An artist must make time for the long periods of solitude
– Solitude is extremely important
– Away from home
– Away from the studio
– Away from family
– Away from friends
– An artist should stay for long periods of time at waterfalls
– An artist should stay for long periods of time at exploding volcanoes
– An artist should stay for long periods of time looking at the fast running rivers
– An artist should stay for long periods of time looking at the horizon where the ocean and sky meet
– An artist should stay for long periods of time looking at the stars in the night sky
13. An artist’s conduct in relation to work:
– An artist should avoid going to the studio every day
– An artist should not treat his work schedule as a bank employee does
– An artist should explore life and work only when an idea comes to him in a dream or during the day as a vision that arises as a surprise
– An artist should not repeat himself
– An artist should not overproduce
– An artist should avoid his own art pollution
– An artist should avoid his own art pollution
– An artist should avoid his own art pollution
14. An artist’s possessions:
– Buddhist monks advise that it is best to have nine possessions in their life:
1 robe for the summer
1 robe for the winter
1 pair of shoes
1 begging bowl for food
1 mosquito net
1 prayer book
1 umbrella
1 mat to sleep on
1 pair of glasses if needed
– An artist should decide for himself the minimum personal possessions they should have
– An artist should have more and more of less and less
– An artist should have more and more of less and less
– An artist should have more and more of less and less
15. A list of an artist’s friends:
– An artist should have friends that lift their spirits
– An artist should have friends that lift their spirits
– An artist should have friends that lift their spirits
16. A list of an artist’s enemies:
– Enemies are very important
– The Dalai Lama has said that it is easy to have compassion with friends but much more difficult to have compassion with enemies
– An artist has to learn to forgive
– An artist has to learn to forgive
– An artist has to learn to forgive
17. Different death scenarios:
– An artist has to be aware of his own mortality
– For an artist, it is not only important how he lives his life but also how he dies
– An artist should look at the symbols of his work for the signs of different death scenarios
– An artist should die consciously without fear
– An artist should die consciously without fear
– An artist should die consciously without fear
18. Different funeral scenarios:
– An artist should give instructions before the funeral so that everything is done the way he wants it
– The funeral is the artist’s last art piece before leaving
– The funeral is the artist’s last art piece before leaving
– The funeral is the artist’s last art piece before leaving
– An artist should not lie to himself or others
– An artist should not steal ideas from other artists
– An artist should not compromise for themselves or in regards to the art market
– An artist should not kill other human beings
– An artist should not make themselves into an idol
– An artist should not make themselves into an idol
– An artist should not make themselves into an idol
2. An artist’s relation to his love life:
– An artist should avoid falling in love with another artist
– An artist should avoid falling in love with another artist
– An artist should avoid falling in love with another artist
3. An artist’s relation to the erotic:
– An artist should develop an erotic point of view on the world
– An artist should be erotic
– An artist should be erotic
– An artist should be erotic
4. An artist’s relation to suffering:
– An artist should suffer
– From the suffering comes the best work
– Suffering brings transformation
– Through the suffering an artist transcends their spirit
– Through the suffering an artist transcends their spirit
– Through the suffering an artist transcends their spirit
5. An artist’s relation to depression:
– An artist should not be depressed
– Depression is a disease and should be cured
– Depression is not productive for an artist
– Depression is not productive for an artist
– Depression is not productive for an artist
6. An artist’s relation to suicide:
– Suicide is a crime against life
– An artist should not commit suicide
– An artist should not commit suicide
– An artist should not commit suicide
7. An artist’s relation to inspiration:
– An artist should look deep inside themselves for inspiration
– The deeper they look inside themselves, the more universal they become
– The artist is universe
– The artist is universe
– The artist is universe
8. An artist’s relation to self-control:
– The artist should not have self-control about his life
– The artist should have total self-control about his work
– The artist should not have self-control about his life
– The artist should have total self-control about his work
9. An artist’s relation with transparency:
– The artist should give and receive at the same time
– Transparency means receptive
– Transparency means to give
– Transparency means to receive
– Transparency means receptive
– Transparency means to give
– Transparency means to receive
– Transparency means receptive
– Transparency means to give
– Transparency means to receive
10. An artist’s relation to symbols:
– An artist creates his own symbols
– Symbols are an artist’s language
– The language must then be translated
– Sometimes it is difficult to find the key
– Sometimes it is difficult to find the key
– Sometimes it is difficult to find the key
11. An artist’s relation to silence:
– An artist has to understand silence
– An artist has to create a space for silence to enter his work
– Silence is like an island in the middle of a turbulent ocean
– Silence is like an island in the middle of a turbulent ocean
– Silence is like an island in the middle of a turbulent ocean
12. An artist’s relation to solitude:
– An artist must make time for the long periods of solitude
– Solitude is extremely important
– Away from home
– Away from the studio
– Away from family
– Away from friends
– An artist should stay for long periods of time at waterfalls
– An artist should stay for long periods of time at exploding volcanoes
– An artist should stay for long periods of time looking at the fast running rivers
– An artist should stay for long periods of time looking at the horizon where the ocean and sky meet
– An artist should stay for long periods of time looking at the stars in the night sky
13. An artist’s conduct in relation to work:
– An artist should avoid going to the studio every day
– An artist should not treat his work schedule as a bank employee does
– An artist should explore life and work only when an idea comes to him in a dream or during the day as a vision that arises as a surprise
– An artist should not repeat himself
– An artist should not overproduce
– An artist should avoid his own art pollution
– An artist should avoid his own art pollution
– An artist should avoid his own art pollution
14. An artist’s possessions:
– Buddhist monks advise that it is best to have nine possessions in their life:
1 robe for the summer
1 robe for the winter
1 pair of shoes
1 begging bowl for food
1 mosquito net
1 prayer book
1 umbrella
1 mat to sleep on
1 pair of glasses if needed
– An artist should decide for himself the minimum personal possessions they should have
– An artist should have more and more of less and less
– An artist should have more and more of less and less
– An artist should have more and more of less and less
15. A list of an artist’s friends:
– An artist should have friends that lift their spirits
– An artist should have friends that lift their spirits
– An artist should have friends that lift their spirits
16. A list of an artist’s enemies:
– Enemies are very important
– The Dalai Lama has said that it is easy to have compassion with friends but much more difficult to have compassion with enemies
– An artist has to learn to forgive
– An artist has to learn to forgive
– An artist has to learn to forgive
17. Different death scenarios:
– An artist has to be aware of his own mortality
– For an artist, it is not only important how he lives his life but also how he dies
– An artist should look at the symbols of his work for the signs of different death scenarios
– An artist should die consciously without fear
– An artist should die consciously without fear
– An artist should die consciously without fear
18. Different funeral scenarios:
– An artist should give instructions before the funeral so that everything is done the way he wants it
– The funeral is the artist’s last art piece before leaving
– The funeral is the artist’s last art piece before leaving
– The funeral is the artist’s last art piece before leaving
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